Back to blogging

After my last blog post (that wasn't poetry) almost four months ago, I decided to give up on blogging. I got to the point where I labeled anything unrelated to my creative ambitions as a waste of time. More than that, I felt like nobody cared what I had to say anyway, even though that's …

Dazing regret

Breathing apathyThe days are painted blackWhat I once lived forBelonging to the past I drown in your absenceThough our time was briefHaven't found acceptanceStuck in disbelief Has it already endedBefore we even beganThere is no moving forwardAfter all that's left unsaid The future I dreadedNow seems here to stayMy fear manifestedAcross time and space My …

Gloom in repetition

Wish I were like youNon-judgmentalAlways true Though I don't know your mindMaybe you're like mePretending to be kind Who's to say it's wrongTo be conflictedTo never belong It's exhausting just to beFighting the demonsThat no one can see I can do no rightThat's all I hearInside my mind Every day is my lastNothing to ponderBut …

The world through your eyes

Trying to imagineThe world through your eyesWith your heart and reasonAlthough far from mine The weak they founderIn a merciless worldThey're out to get meI won't be put to dirt Beware of the unknownIntruders will be foughtIt is us against themThe way it always was Divide and conquerThere is no greater rushNo time for justiceUntil …

Once a Poet

Outside of realityIs where I made my homeLiving in a fantasyI sit upon my throne Tortured by silenceChaos inside my headMy demons are violentFilling the days with dread Loneliness reminds meOf all that's left unsaidThe one I longed forNow a ghost of the past The end of the tunnelNo longer holds a lightMy spirit is …

Experiencing differences between Japan and the West

Before I start this post I want to say that I really don't believe in stereotyping in any shape or form. The reason why it took me so long to write a post like this, is actually that I didn't want to risk coming off as a small-minded or generalizing person. Yet I now see …

Looking back on my journey to Japan

The one year anniversary of my move to Japan is coming up. I'm not sure how to feel about this. On the one hand it feels like yesterday that I woke up at 5 AM, headed towards the train station while dragging my heavy luggage through the dark empty streets of my hometown, and began …

Fighting with my weekends

In my last post I said I'd try sticking to writing 3 paragraphs a day. I had only tried this the week before, but wasn't able to do it this week because I was so busy with work. I know the whole point of writing only 3 paragraphs was to be able to stay consistent …

Endless, Randomness

According to the pattern that has manifested in my blog writing, this post is supposed to be another personal outpour of anxiety and frustration. Right now it seems that I'm alternating between posts about global issues or recent events and posts about my personal struggles, most of which have little to do with what the …

No more silence

Ever since I moved to Japan I've been trying to immerse myself in the experience as much as possible. For me this meant things like studying Japanese every day, learning about the culture and being aware of everything going on around me. I wanted to try as much as I could to not only be …